BLACK

My favourite colour is black. Black symbolizes "Darkness" but to me, Black brings all sort of happiness and colours of life. I realized my love for black when I entered my teenage. In school, I was this girl who was very quiet till class 8th. I used to observe all the other girls in my class who used to be busy talking about their boyfriends and love lives and I use to think that why don't they discuss these things with me, even I am a girl who is sensible enough to understand the stuff. Whenever I tried entering the discussion they used to stop the discussion, started smiling and used to say... No discussion in front of small babies as it might hurt their feelings and emotions. I used to think what made them think like that? Just because I don't have a fancy hairstyle with long wavy hairs and I look like a tomboy doesn't mean that I don't have any feelings.

As I entered class 9th I took a decision in my heart that I'll be one of those girls whom everybody loves to talk to and to be with. I was a Computer Science and Mathematics student in my school which was supposed to be a very huge thing at that time because in the entire 9th standard 7% of girls studied that. One more thing which added was my "small town" where studying in a convent , that too Computer Science that too for a girl, was not common and on the verge of being an achievement. I belonged to a middle class family where generally children don't study in Convent. So back in my class, I started boasting about guys that there are so many guys who are after me but I have no time.. etc etc.. and all kind of stupid girl crap I could say, just to start a small conversation with those girls. Still, I observed that those stupid high profile girls wearing short skirts (compared to the skirts of other girls) were not interested in talking to me. I started feeling helpless and was about to believe that in this life I would never be able to talk to them and enter their group, I am not a girly girl but some stupid girl who has no girl group to talk. Then one fine day out of my senses I observed that while all these days when I was busy to enter the stupid group, there were other cute sweet girls from junior section who wanted to talk to me but were ignored from my end. I started talking to them and mingeling with them and I came to know many strange things about me. Those small girls were my fans and they just loved me the way I am, I was good at sports and studies both. On sports day they saw me marching with my squad and on prize distribution, they saw me accepting the trophy for winning Science Quiz . And that day, they reminded me of many such moments from my life which were ignored from my end. Those little children taught me a big lesson and unknowkingly helped me to understand what special qualities I have and how I am different from others. From them only I came to know that "BLACK" is the colour I wear on every occasion. That day in the evening I asked my mother, "Mom! do I wear black too often?" She smiled and said nothing. I went to my room and opened my closet and saw that 95% of my clothes were black in colour. Black T-shirts, Black Jeans, Black Frock, Black Skirt, Black Suit, I was absolutely stunned when I saw that my shoes and sandals were also black. How come I never noticed when I was buying all these stuff? I realised this is because "Black" color reflects "Me".

People wearing black are submissive yet powerful and authoritative. It is said that its the color of darkness and evil but at the same time it symbolizes eligence also. Black expresses the depths of the unknown, and encourages the imagination of a different world from that of daylight realities. It represent ideas such as sophistication, formality, wealth, mystery, style, anger and fear. Black can also represent a lack of color, the primordial void, emptiness.

Black roses to most people signify death, or hatred but to me, it mean farewell, rejuvenation or rebirth. It can also mean overcoming a long hard journey.

That day I understood myself and stopped following those meaningless girls. I started paying attention to my studies. I scored 99% in Mathemeatics and 92% in Computer Science at my High School and my photos were there in newspapers and most of the Pamphlet. I got recognition in every school as a 16 year old and now each and every girl of my school wanted to talk including those high profile girls and Yes I didn't disappointed anybody. I used to talk to all of them but the discussion was about Mathematics and Computer Science and sometimes boys but no boasting this time.. only the real incidents;)

That small observation helped me to understand myself and now I consider myself a better person in most of the sense. I respect humanity, justice and I love my work. I am happy with the present conditions of my life and working towards betterment.

If I have to conclude, I think I am towards success (even if I am not, no problem in thinking.. right??? )
I still love Black.